maybe... there are sometimes i think of blogging as a chore. hey just think about it, after the bad encounters you had for the day, you have to sit down, go through it all over again just to write all the shit. aint it killing? i cant bear to put myself in the situation anymore. i only had 2 entries for february and that sucks. i must have missed out alot because i can be really absent minded. my memory sucks if you really know me then you would know. and, i couldnt spare time for it but hey, life's real short. you'll never know when you are gonna just die and be forgotton. im no famous shit but im still someone. so i promise i'll write more often.

so...

my house finished renovation few days ago and everything was... expensive. i dont know lah. no comments to the folks but its... you know.

had sports day on thursday and i woke up early in the morning and met up with lynn, fer, sam, jun and kelvin... and... maybe some others i've missed out, to the stadium. its so dreadful as i've never participated in any events since secondary.

choir got second in the inter-cca event and there were little incidents that happened. it was so embarrassing for them okay. for example, it was suppose to be adam getting the best male runner for sec4/5 but ms thia made it all wrong by announcing it was ben ho. then they corrected the mistake and ben along with adam went back to the front and gave the trophy back to the rightful owner shaking hands. i think its hilarious. but the climax was when they were announcing the best class. some heard 3e4 and some heard 2e4. the exact class was the 2e4 class and junhong not knowing the situation came out to shake hands with the guest of honour after he pulled his shirt up to cover his head like some football fanatic. everyone laughed loud at him and he walked back covering his face. wahaha. xD some unforgettable sport day, with no class t-shirt for 3 straight years. pathetic.

i forgot where i went after the sports day. slacked with fer and lynn for awhile at cwp then i headed home with him. only wanted him to wait for me in my room but my dad came home early and shouted at him. couldnt go out after that, stayed at home the whole day. everyone was in bad mood. i dont know why but i heard that his first impression sucked. great eh?

went to school all tired out. art was a disaster because i couldnt concentrate at all. sketching was dreadful due to the dying battery in me then physics killed me. my shirt got dirtied by fucking chilli, so chinese was shit. we were throwing paper planes, heck cared homework. left school in a rush. couldnt bear the boredom and decided to go out around evening time. dad got angry about this, i got so angry about fabian because of what happened at cwp. wont go further into this, spoils the day really. got home late and momma was angry, had blue blacks, shouldnt say much as well.

it was a disaster yesterday at school. it was full dress rehersal and so many people were late, the hair was really ugly to judith and shes was really angry about it. but its quite good overall lah. no big mistakes. but the bukit batok costume was abit like our backdrop so we got really worried. oh my god, imagine shimmering blue top on you. =/

i endured the whole session till 2 and went for lunch, reach home late and joseph was there. we got bored played o2jam and went for dinner together with my family. what else could i ask for? i dont know.

stayed at home today. went online, ate all i can and watched tv till i went giddy. thats all. tried getting in o2jam but its all full. fucktards occupy every other room. fuck.

got tagged by emilene jie, telling me to write about 7 point of my perfect lover. here goes...

1. ultimately not sentive, listens and understands
2. cares for and dotes on me
3. love me the most, only me and all about me (:
4. walks me home from tiring school
5. hilarious, never turns me down
6. never break promises
7. never lie to me

i'll be like rui jie and write more. i have more to write.

- comes all the way to my house to pass me my birthday present
- be the first one i can turn to when im feeling really down
- celebrates his birthday with me, not his friends
- holds my hand tight when im cold and when we finish watchin movie.

how i hope i can see that all the points mentioned were being seen from him. but theres wasnt enough time for me to see all these clearly from him, im not able to know he'll be someone like this.


i miss this...


i dont know what iajsbblb means, what ddsgglg means, what gin & rin means. how i wish i'm the one who gets to do all these with you. =/ someday, i hope i'll get to talk to you again. like how you will talk to her. i envy her, really. i just wanna feel like your friend again.

;i am afraid